I should just shut up Tuesday, May 29, 2012 / 6:22 PM
I cared about people around,but I taken to be a fool that people think I'm joking that I'm gay caring for male friend. what kind of logic is this? sometimes I really don't get it at all. I just care about people around. if you're not someone that has a important place in my heart do you think I will actually care about your bloody problems? is an absolutely no of course. so think about it before making it a joke! I'm tired I shall blog again.
So tired, been so long ever since I blog. been working so didn't have the time to blog. I going to sleep any way shall blog tomorrow Sunday, April 22, 2012 / 2:13 AM
Back.! Thursday, December 22, 2011 / 3:37 AM
Back to blog., lots of things recently. Not really bad things but to me got a new good friend. Nothing is happier then getting a friend that would appreciate whatever you do for him. Well yes is a him. And he is once my hatters and i hates him too. Well after getting to know him. My life is filled with wonderful colours and i am alot happier then before. Well. He appreciate wadever i do for him. That's enough actually. Family is having some little issue that i need to solve. So yeah.. I call it little issue as i believe it will be over soon.. Ok. That's all for now. Blog again tomorrow! Goodnight everyone! =)
GOODBYE; Friday, December 9, 2011 / 9:30 PM
well this is life. people leave and come. what you have to do is to stay strong because the right person will come your way someday.
sometimes you may think that this person that came into your life right now is the right one.Is the one that will followed you till the end then you are to take some time off again to look at that person carefully. That person may come into your life and get something they really need and then they forgets about you. The person may come into your life to hurt you,make your life a mess and leave. Or the person is to come and gives you support and love when you really needed someone to be with you. These you have to discover yourself, no one can help you at looking at the content of the book for the book is in your hands. so OPEN your eyes big and see who is actually the one that will be with you when you are really down. There isn't any needs to make a person that hurts you stay. all you have to do to let go and say goodbye. Old things have to be gone to have new things arrived .
p/s: goodbye is something everyone have to go through in life.
我的童年 / 12:41 AM
我的童年，认识我的人都以为我的童年是很好的，那你们就错了。每个人有个完美的家庭，有个他们的爸爸，
可是我在我5岁的时候就没有了爸爸了。你可能会说我有4年的爱，你又错了。我在我3岁的时候就被我爸每天都打我。每天都从单车上被丢下来每天都有新的伤，有时还会被带到一个我不知道的地方被放在那里。我就像一个孤儿一样。 我要的父爱，一点也没有。我每次看到人家的家庭那么幸福那么美满我真希望我能让时间从来。 我爸在我5岁那年死了。我又觉得好又觉得不好。好在我不必再被打了，不好再我失去了一个爸。我应该这么做呢，哭还是笑？我真的不知道。
我妈就这样把我送去外国读书，我每天都在想着家。每天都在想我要的亲人都不在我身边。我从小就要承受这么多。每个人都说我不知道你们的痛那你们了解我的痛嘛？没有人了解。 我妈在我去国外读书的时候跟了一个uncle。 生了一个妹妹。你们一定说我会有父爱了阿，我从来没有被当自己人。 我就好像变成了外人。我做什么事都没有一样是对的。。所以我在国外被人伤害，或有什么心事我都只能自己受。自己在哭得时候谁会懂呢？没有人。只有我自己。我很多干哥哥可是没有一个会关心我的只会在我身上拿好处然后就不认人了。 我的人生是就是那么不好。如果人生可以来过我真希望我没有来到这世界。=/
happiness~ =D Thursday, December 8, 2011 / 10:01 PM
well said as the sentence in the picture is well said. To be happy is the best revenge. old things that when is time to let go we should let go.. because is no point holding on to it when is not yours anymore. is not going to give you that happiness anymore,then is time to let go. because holding on to it will only gives you pain. To people that don't treasure you,they are going to regret when they look back in time. they are going to regret that why didn't they treasure you at first. So as for now we should live with happiness to make the people that hates you happy! ok~ that's for today's post~ see ya tomorrow~
p/s:never be sad for people that don't treasure you, because they will never know that you have a heart to feel hurt.
hurt once again Wednesday, December 7, 2011 / 2:53 PM
Not all scars show, not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can't always see, the pain someone feels.
Everytime people ask me if I'm okay, it's just a reminder that I'm not.You say you listen with all of your heart, so can you hear my silent screaming?I'm tired of lying. I'm tired of crying. I know I've been smiling but inside I'm dying.Should I hate you because you hurt me? Or love you because for that brief time you made me feel special?
Life isn`t measured by the breaths we take, But by the moments that take our breath away.
I am always treated like a tissue paper,you think i am good when you are using me.. after i'm used and useless you just have to throw me away.not knowing that i'm a human with feelings.not knowing that by doing this i will get hurt. why am i always being treated this way~ why! i wish i didn't have feelings,i wish i didn't have a heart to feel hurt at all. i am so useless can't be like people that make use of me so cruel, i am so hopeless that been hurt by people around me again and again. why am i always treated this way. why am i always the one getting hurt, i need a break! i seriously need a break. i need a break from so much pain. i need a break to make my wound heal again.
people around me just think that i am strong enough to stand your insult and hurtful words,but you are wrong. I always tell myself that i have to be strong that because i need to confirm those who needs someone to be at their side but when i am hurt and sad who is actually here to comfort me?? who is actually here to give me to power to move on. i need a helping hands. i need someone to help me to move on. i need all the hurting people to stop coming my way. if this doesn't help i guess i have to removed my heart...
p/s:never think that a person seem so strong is always strong, he/she will have his/her weak times.
if there isn't you Tuesday, December 6, 2011 / 10:08 AM
i'm back taking some time off work to update my blog, well recently lots of unhappy things happen, lots of things that made me feel like giving up. feel like i am a fool infront of people that i really cared about. My care just became something that is so useless that people think that i am being a busybody poking my nose into their stuff. i am always smiling and making jokes that make people around me happy, helping everyone with every little things that will make them happy even just for a minute, but who actually remembered that i was the one that be with you when you actually need someone to talk to and make you laugh? no one.. no matter how much i seem to help them in everything that seem so important to them,i am just a transparent glass in their heart. no one would actually care whether i am sad or not because in their heart i am always the happy one. people always say you wouldn't know my pain because you have not been through what i have been through~ think of it i can totally say you are wrong. Every time before i said i understand i think about myself before i said it,if i haven been through what you are going through now i wouldn't have said i understand how you feel.. people that seem so strong infront of you doesn't mean that they didn't have bad times in life. after so much pain in these few days someone walked into my life. Is not a Girl but a Guy. don't think the other way round. He is a god bro i owned after i was hurt by someone close to me. he is always the one that makes me stand up on my feet again and again. hurtful things just came knocking onto me and he is always the one that is leading me to a new path so i won't get hurt again. never the less no matter what i post everyday on facebook he just seem to be looking but quietly whenever he see a post that seem i am not feeling happy at all there comes his caring sms. he is the one that see me as someone that he cares. Now at least i know that i am at least not transparent in one person's eyes. To me that's enough..
everyone stay happy always see you~ ^^
ah gor thanks for all the help and care you gave to me.ok that's for now. i will be changing my link soon..
thanks for always getting me on my feet whenever i was going to break down,
if there isn't you i wouldn't be here writing this post anymore. thank you for everything. you are
the most important person to me now. because no one think that i will treat them so important.
thank you!
everyone stay happy always see you~ ^^
Facts Saturday, November 26, 2011 / 1:21 AM
well i am back to blog after a long long time~ man i kind of feeling low today~ should i put it as low~ ermmmm.... i am not sure.. been sleeping for only 2hours this few days... waking up everyday at 8am to help my bro with task everyday and sleep at only 4-5am.. is this the fact that everyone as a human being will never remember what you really did for them..they will only remember the bad things about you.. damn why is people like that.. i really really hope my thought is wrong this time.. ..i don't wish to be hurt time again and again.. i pray that the bad ending will not come upon me again.. i don't wish to be hurt once again after healing from such pain.. time shall show everything...=( ok i shall blog till here i shall blog again soon...
p/s:hope things will get better~
remind of you~ Saturday, October 29, 2011 / 1:30 AM
back to blog. i thought i could be back with a happy post, a happy me. but it just seems to get back to where when you hurt me. i am healing in progress. but someone just remind me of you... ask me about you. ask me" jeff how is your bro?" my mouth just can't seem to say anything. should i say my bro didn't wan me as his bro any more? or should i say i dunno? i really dunno what to say.. i really really feel very hurt now. i still hoping one day you would msg me and tel me you got your reason for not talking to me. i am hoping it everyday. really really hope one day you would msg me... haii....
JEFFREY제프리♥