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Back.!

2011-12-22T03:37:00.001+08:00

Back to blog., lots of things recently. Not really bad things but to me got a new good friend. Nothing is happier then getting a friend that would appreciate whatever you do for him. Well yes is a him. And he is once my hatters and i hates him too. Well after getting to know him. My life is filled with wonderful colours and i am alot happier then before. Well. He appreciate wadever i do for him. That's enough actually. Family is having some little issue that i need to solve. So yeah.. I call it little issue as i believe it will be over soon.. Ok. That's all for now. Blog again tomorrow! Goodnight everyone! =)

GOODBYE;

2011-12-09T21:30:00.002+08:00

goodbye is nothing bad actually, sometimes saying goodbye is to get a new hello in life... if you keep holding on to something that you have to let go,i believe you are not going to be happy at all.Like me i have loses many things in life. i loses a god brother and came a another. this few days i lost a friend. and i gain a good brother again.

well this is life. people leave and come. what you have to do is to stay strong because the right person will come your way someday.

sometimes you may think that this person that came into your life right now is the right one.Is the one that will followed you till the end then you are to take some time off again to look at that person carefully. That person may come into your life and get something they really need and then they forgets about you. The person may come into your life to hurt you,make your life a mess and leave. Or the person is to come and gives you support and love when you really needed someone to be with you. These you have to discover yourself, no one can help you at looking at the content of the book for the book is in your hands. so OPEN your eyes big and see who is actually the one that will be with you when you are really down. There isn't any needs to make a person that hurts you stay. all you have to do to let go and say goodbye. Old things have to be gone to have new things arrived .

p/s: goodbye is something everyone have to go through in life.

我的童年

2011-12-09T00:41:00.004+08:00

我的童年，认识我的人都以为我的童年是很好的，那你们就错了。每个人有个完美的家庭，有个他们的爸爸，
可是我在我5岁的时候就没有了爸爸了。你可能会说我有4年的爱，你又错了。我在我3岁的时候就被我爸每天都打我。每天都从单车上被丢下来每天都有新的伤，有时还会被带到一个我不知道的地方被放在那里。我就像一个孤儿一样。我要的父爱，一点也没有。我每次看到人家的家庭那么幸福那么美满我真希望我能让时间从来。我爸在我5岁那年死了。我又觉得好又觉得不好。好在我不必再被打了，不好再我失去了一个爸。我应该这么做呢，哭还是笑？我真的不知道。
我妈就这样把我送去外国读书，我每天都在想着家。每天都在想我要的亲人都不在我身边。我从小就要承受这么多。每个人都说我不知道你们的痛那你们了解我的痛嘛？没有人了解。我妈在我去国外读书的时候跟了一个uncle。生了一个妹妹。你们一定说我会有父爱了阿，我从来没有被当自己人。我就好像变成了外人。我做什么事都没有一样是对的。。所以我在国外被人伤害，或有什么心事我都只能自己受。自己在哭得时候谁会懂呢？没有人。只有我自己。我很多干哥哥可是没有一个会关心我的只会在我身上拿好处然后就不认人了。我的人生是就是那么不好。如果人生可以来过我真希望我没有来到这世界。=/

happiness~ =D

2011-12-08T22:01:00.002+08:00

well said as the sentence in the picture is well said. To be happy is the best revenge. old things that when is time to let go we should let go.. because is no point holding on to it when is not yours anymore. is not going to give you that happiness anymore,then is time to let go. because holding on to it will only gives you pain. To people that don't treasure you,they are going to regret when they look back in time. they are going to regret that why didn't they treasure you at first. So as for now we should live with happiness to make the people that hates you happy! ok~ that's for today's post~ see ya tomorrow~

p/s:never be sad for people that don't treasure you, because they will never know that you have a heart to feel hurt.

hurt once again

2011-12-07T14:53:00.003+08:00

Not all scars show, not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can't always see, the pain someone feels.
Everytime people ask me if I'm okay, it's just a reminder that I'm not.

You say you listen with all of your heart, so can you hear my silent screaming?

I'm tired of lying. I'm tired of crying. I know I've been smiling but inside I'm dying.

Should I hate you because you hurt me? Or love you because for that brief time you made me feel special?

Life isn`t measured by the breaths we take, But by the moments that take our breath away.

I am always treated like a tissue paper,you think i am good when you are using me.. after i'm used and useless you just have to throw me away.not knowing that i'm a human with feelings.not knowing that by doing this i will get hurt. why am i always being treated this way~ why! i wish i didn't have feelings,i wish i didn't have a heart to feel hurt at all. i am so useless can't be like people that make use of me so cruel, i am so hopeless that been hurt by people around me again and again. why am i always treated this way. why am i always the one getting hurt, i need a break! i seriously need a break. i need a break from so much pain. i need a break to make my wound heal again.

people around me just think that i am strong enough to stand your insult and hurtful words,but you are wrong. I always tell myself that i have to be strong that because i need to confirm those who needs someone to be at their side but when i am hurt and sad who is actually here to comfort me?? who is actually here to give me to power to move on. i need a helping hands. i need someone to help me to move on. i need all the hurting people to stop coming my way. if this doesn't help i guess i have to removed my heart...

p/s:never think that a person seem so strong is always strong, he/she will have his/her weak times.

if there isn't you

2011-12-06T10:08:00.003+08:00

i'm back taking some time off work to update my blog, well recently lots of unhappy things happen, lots of things that made me feel like giving up. feel like i am a fool infront of people that i really cared about. My care just became something that is so useless that people think that i am being a busybody poking my nose into their stuff. i am always smiling and making jokes that make people around me happy, helping everyone with every little things that will make them happy even just for a minute, but who actually remembered that i was the one that be with you when you actually need someone to talk to and make you laugh? no one.. no matter how much i seem to help them in everything that seem so important to them,i am just a transparent glass in their heart. no one would actually care whether i am sad or not because in their heart i am always the happy one. people always say you wouldn't know my pain because you have not been through what i have been through~ think of it i can totally say you are wrong. Every time before i said i understand i think about myself before i said it,if i haven been through what you are going through now i wouldn't have said i understand how you feel.. people that seem so strong infront of you doesn't mean that they didn't have bad times in life. after so much pain in these few days someone walked into my life. Is not a Girl but a Guy. don't think the other way round. He is a god bro i owned after i was hurt by someone close to me. he is always the one that makes me stand up on my feet again and again. hurtful things just came knocking onto me and he is always the one that is leading me to a new path so i won't get hurt again. never the less no matter what i post everyday on facebook he just seem to be looking but quietly whenever he see a post that seem i am not feeling happy at all there comes his caring sms. he is the one that see me as someone that he cares. Now at least i know that i am at least not transparent in one person's eyes. To me that's enough..

ah gor thanks for all the help and care you gave to me.
thanks for always getting me on my feet whenever i was going to break down,
if there isn't you i wouldn't be here writing this post anymore. thank you for everything. you are
the most important person to me now. because no one think that i will treat them so important.
thank you!

ok that's for now. i will be changing my link soon..
everyone stay happy always see you~ ^^

Facts

2011-11-26T01:21:00.002+08:00

well i am back to blog after a long long time~ man i kind of feeling low today~ should i put it as low~ ermmmm.... i am not sure.. been sleeping for only 2hours this few days... waking up everyday at 8am to help my bro with task everyday and sleep at only 4-5am.. is this the fact that everyone as a human being will never remember what you really did for them..they will only remember the bad things about you.. damn why is people like that.. i really really hope my thought is wrong this time.. ..i don't wish to be hurt time again and again.. i pray that the bad ending will not come upon me again.. i don't wish to be hurt once again after healing from such pain.. time shall show everything...=( ok i shall blog till here i shall blog again soon...

p/s:hope things will get better~

remind of you~

2011-10-29T01:30:00.003+08:00

back to blog. i thought i could be back with a happy post, a happy me. but it just seems to get back to where when you hurt me. i am healing in progress. but someone just remind me of you... ask me about you. ask me" jeff how is your bro?" my mouth just can't seem to say anything. should i say my bro didn't wan me as his bro any more? or should i say i dunno? i really dunno what to say.. i really really feel very hurt now. i still hoping one day you would msg me and tel me you got your reason for not talking to me. i am hoping it everyday. really really hope one day you would msg me... haii....

='(

2011-10-20T19:44:00.000+08:00

如果事情能那么简单就好了。

如果人类没有心脏就好了。

如果当初没有认识你就好了。

如果我绝情一点就好了。

如果我没有那么心软就好了。

如果人不会有感情就好了。

如果这些都会发生就好了。

现在的心情又回到你决定不跟我说话的那一刻，心里很多很多疑问想要问你。可是不管我用什么方法都没办法让你回答我的问题。你一定在想，事情过了那么久我应该会没事了吧。那你就错了。这个痛虽然因时间就不会那么痛了。可是我是一个很组中友情的，对我来说每一段友情都是珍贵的。可能对你来说一切只是回到原点。一切对你来说就好像都没发生过。可是对我来说这些都是一段回忆。一段会永远在我的记忆里的回忆。因为你曾经让我知道身边有一个关心我的人是怎样的感觉。我不管你是不是真的关心我，还是只是假的。我现在不需要知道了，我也不想再有被欺骗的感觉了。就让它成为我在你身上得到的一点好处吧。我每天都在想我们可能会在成为朋友吗？我真的不想失去你这个朋友。不管人家这么看你，你在我心里永远都是我的哥，永远都是。

我领原我自己痛苦，只要你开心就好了。

醉后决定爱上你

2011-10-11T14:59:00.004+08:00

昨天看了这部偶像剧，“醉后决定爱上你” 非常的好看。不只这样，我在戏中学到也领取到了很多人生的道理。像在戏中的“张孝全”说的

一直活在过去的人是到不了未来的。

我觉得这句话说得很有道理。就拿我的事做个比例吧。我刚被人利用了，心真的好痛好痛。这件事情让我永远忘不了的。可是如果我一直想着这件事的话，我就不能往前走了你们说对不对。

张孝全也说了

没有办法陪你往前走的人，就把他留在原点。绝情一点你就不会那么痛了。

所以，我一定要绝情一点，这样才不会那么痛。这部戏让我有了新的偶像，那就是：

这两位，我看了好多他们演得戏我感觉他们都好努力的把自己的戏演好。

他们真的让我看了他们的戏好入戏哦。他们演到我好像去谈恋爱哦。。

好了。就说到这里吧。如果你们还没看这部戏的话快去看。包你不会后悔的！

p/s:我不能代替你伤心难过，可是在未来的日子里我可以把我的幸福借给你。

Fake smile.

2011-10-10T05:48:00.001+08:00

Everytime i think of what happen within me and you i still feels the pain within. Even i told ma that i'm going to be strong.. I try to be strong but i kept thinking why are you treating me this way?.i really wish we could still stay as bro.. I am smiling this few days but the smile seems to be a fake one... I'm really feeling damm down when i think of what happen.. Nobody knows how i feel... Maybe this is what my life would be. Being used by people..  P/s: Is hurting me whenever i think of you.. =(

lesson learned.

2011-10-04T03:16:00.003+08:00

Back to blog. today's topic lesson learned.

well no matter how hard you try to make someone your family.. no matter how well you treat them, have you asked yourself, are they treating you like their own family? no matter how helpful you are to them,have they actually cared and keep it in heart that you actually helped them before? As people said "you can't judge a book by its cover" well i totally agreed with that sentence.

first you can't judge a book just by its cover, you have to read through to know the real truth of that book.

second, by looking at the book you wouldn't know is the book nice or bad?? you have to take time to prove that.

same goes to looking at someone. well.. by looking at their face do you actually know how that people will be like, how would that person do something? will that person treat you as someone they really think is important? All you can do is put all your trust in that person and trust that he/she really can do a part as being a friend or even a bro/sis of yours. yeah that's what i did i put all.. IS ALL my trust into someone trusting that XOXO can give me the love as a family i never had. but.. what am i getting in return. nothing but scars in my heart, a deep and painful scar in my heart. I don't know what is the real reason i wish to find out, but there isn't any way i can find out. because u blocked all way of contacting you. Is ok. Is your freedom that you do anything. you have no one to asked permission to do these things. just take it as i am STUPID enough to actually believe in you. I can rise my hands up high and swear to GOD. i did nothing wrong. i don't think i did anything that hurts you. anything that make your life worst.. you said to me once

" don't be crazy i won't make used of you"

well this maybe doesn't seem to be using me to you,but to me it seems alot like using me.

when i see that you are one of my family i went telling people i have a very nice person treating me well so i am pretty much very happy with life. everyone envy me that i have someone so nice caring for me. i have people telling me your bro is so nice to you.. how i hope i have a bro like yours. but look what is happening now.. people asked why are you writing emotional post on facebook and twitter i just seems to be speechless. i just seems to be so helpless to say anything. because in my heart i still believe you wouldn't do this to me. because i treated you like my own bro.. this post seem like i am complaining. well look at all post before.. after this happen i struggle to move on with my life this 4days~ My tears drop when i think of everything. there is nothing i can do. Today i have think through and i stand on my feet and tell myself. i can't carry on like this.. i have better things to do in life then being sad here. so as someone told me

"just take this as a lesson learned"

yes this is a lesson learned not because you did this to me and the lesson learn is not i have meet a bad person

the lesson learned is i can only blame myself. blame myself for being softhearted blame myself for being stupid. i won blame you. like what i said i will treat you like my bro always. i must thank you for all this. because you made me stronger. and thank you for leaving a DEEP SCAR in my heart, this scar will be with me till the day i leave this world.

i will stay strong as long as i am living, i will stay strong as long as there are people loving me out there. i will stay strong because i know there are still people caring for me.

this post isn't blaming you i just need a way to let it out. you are not in fault so don worry.

and remember this" you will always and will always be my bro in my heart, so if one day you think you need me again i welcome you". till that day stay happy always and smile..

p/s: starting from tomorrow, my days will start afresh.

If you are here to hurt me gratz you did it.

2011-10-03T04:17:00.003+08:00

i pretty hurt by someone. i shouldn't says his name.. and i shall not say how is he related to me. well to the one that you think you did the right thing, you may be wrong. you think that by not talking to me i won mind at all, you are wrong too. if you think that whatever you said to me i may forget you maybe wrong too. maybe to you,you are right in doing the right thing. but i think you should think back and act again. by doing something like that you are seriously making me damn hurt. This hurts more thn breaking off with my girlfriends in the past. you know why?! NOT BECAUSE i am GAY! listen up. BECAUSE YOU ARE MORE IMPORTANT THEN ANYONE ELSE EVEN MY GF!

but did you understand that?? i don deserve this kind of treatment before i went to sleep you talking good with me.. but after i'm awake things changed... i did nothing at all. but i am being ignored.. i was feeling damn lost at that time... i was thinking did i made you angry? think back again i was asleep how can i make you angry.. i didn't know what is happening. i don't know what are you trying to do.. you said that you won be forgetting me, i will be important to you too.. i believe your words. i believe you in every words you said.. i believe that you would not be anyone else in my life throwing me away after used... but what is this all about.. tell me.. say something to me! as a victim i need to know the reasons... without saying anything won help at all.. saying the reason not only help us in having good relationship as a friend it will also helps me understanding you more... i don wan to think that you are playing with my feelings in this past few days.. even if you are not talking to me i am still going to cared because before i trust in our relation i already treated you as one self.. you are damn important to me as you know.. no one has the same treatment... is this the way you wanna end? you can just say a word to me.. you don have to block me off from WHATAPP. you have really hurt me real hard.. you have really make me loses feeling to do anything anymore.. maybe you need some time is ok. i'll wait because i treat you like a family.. and you will always be... even if you tell me someday you are just playing with the relation we are having. u will always be part of my life... i treat you so good if this is what i am getting in return i am lost for words.... really lost for words

I'm sorry..

2011-10-01T05:11:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry. To who you may asked? Well to people practically that are really unhappy with me now.. I'm sorry i didn't know what i really did to make you guys damm unhappy or even angry with me.. I'm tired of being treated this way. I'm tired but have no choice.. Everyone that not talking to me now is so important that i can risk my life for them.. But who understands my feelings at all? I'm being ignored for don't know what i do.. I gave everything in everything i can to let you guys be happy... But what i got was being ignored? I really wish to know what did i did wrong to you guys.. But first i want to say i'm sorry i'm really sorry if i did anything wrong to you guys...i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry...

pain~

2011-09-28T23:46:00.002+08:00

i am feeling a deep pain in me... i am really really very uncomfortable... i feels very very pain in me. not because i am sick... i may just break down emotionally.. i hope things will go the right way.. i don wish to have things that will a mess in my life... i think nothing can save me now... i hope thing gets back to normal now... i hope things had never happen in the first place~ i hope GOD please make it right just for me this time~ i don wan things to happen this way.. I don't want! it so important to me! i don wan to lose it... no way... T.T

Runnning towards the light..

2011-09-28T02:54:00.004+08:00

back to blog once again. today's topic,[running towards the light] been stuck in the darkness this few days because of little things. i felt that there's no one was actually there for me.. was thinking of alot of things that will happen that i don wan it to happen in the future.. like one day i will lose my KOR , MA and PA..as you guys know that they are my life now.. i can't lose them at the moment and not even in the future...They are my life, they are my light. the light that always guide me along the darkness road... you know how is so difficult and lonely to walk alone in a path of darkness.. when there's is no one leading you the way.. some people will walk out of darkness alone without anyone leading... but for me.. i need people to lead me out.. or i will be lost.. and be lost forever... thanks to KOR, MA and PA dragging me out..without them i don think i can survive.. i don think i will be sitting here and typing everything out here.. they never fail to teach me everyday talking to them online.. althought we don see each other but like a say as long as i see them online everyday and safe.. i will be very happy...

TO: KOR, MA, PA
you are very important in my life now.. i can't lose you anytime.. without you guys i don think i have anyone with me anymore.. i may just break down... and i will be lost in the darkness forever... i dunno why you guys are so important but it just feels weird without talking to you guys everyday..i have so much to say to you guys but... is isn't things that i can write into words to you guys. i have to do it to proof that also.. i will try to be the best for you all.. LOVE YOU! <3

and to friends out there i will be here for you no matter what ok! you guys are still important to me too! <3 you guys too...

Failure!

2011-09-26T02:24:00.001+08:00

Me fail in everything i do..fail in making my gf stays last time.. Now I am such a failure in life. I am a failure in making my kor understand how i really care for him, i fail in cooling my kor down when he is angry. I fail in everything i do.. See now i fail to control my tears.. I am such a big fat failure in life. I care i really care, i am so so worried about everyone around me, but who is there to understand my worried really comes from the bottom of my heart.. Everyone that i cared is even more important then my life.. But who is there to care that i am really worried and understand me?? There isn't anyone i can talk to.. There isn't anyone that is treating my worried is really worried. Crying is all i can do now...sorry pa ma kor i promise you that i will be strong but... So sorry... So so so sorry...

So tired..

2011-09-25T03:42:00.000+08:00

Today not a happy post.. I am so tired of life sometimes really really tired of everything. Really tired of being used again and again being tired of repeating myself again and again. Tired of being a good guy. I am so tired to be me..to be myself.="(

My life

2011-09-24T06:21:00.001+08:00

My life, is like the hand that are holding these chocolates.. My life is always colourless.. But these chocolates made my life colourful! These chocolate are like my life. But my hands only have 4person that are more important then my own life. Is my god pa,god ma. And my kor. The last person of course is my mum. These people are so important that i can give up my life saving them.. I am not joking. Maybe because from young i was weren't given much love. That lead to the way i am today.. In my eyes people that are important to me now is only these people. Either of you reading my blog. I wrote every post with my heart. Not a single lie i had in it... Thank you once again for all the love.. =)

Happiness

2011-09-23T08:02:00.001+08:00

Today's topic. HAPPINESS! My happiness now is my god pa god ma and ah kor.. They are seriously my happiness now. Everyday waiting for them to online and talk to me. By talking to me hearing that they are save everyday i am already really happy. Why are they my happiness you will ask? Well they are the one that given me happiness this few days and is not normal happiness. Is the real happiness inside. They give me words that really changes me. They are the one that told me "you live for yourself, not for people around you" agreed. And now i have three more person to care for me i have actually need not care about people that don't care! So look for your happiness, it can be anywhere and you must believe that there are people that care about you around! And smile! Stay happy always!

I believe in you~

2011-09-22T07:48:00.001+08:00

我要举起双手，贤上我所有…你给我力量让我向前走…虽然遇到再多的困难你依然在我的身旁我相信我全然的相信… This lyrics is a song by hagen troy tan. Well i would like to let this part of lyrics be given to the 3most important person in my life now. First my godpa.. The person that told me "treating yourself good is treat us good" these words really touches me. And somehow changes me.. Second person is my god ma.. The one that let me know that someone actually care for me. Letting me know that i have someone to turn to when i needed someone. The third person is my kor of course..the one that given me a new thought in my life. Given me care that i haven got so many years back. Now there isn't anything more important them.. There are actually my life now. I am serious. They have actually drag me out of the darkness by just simply care and love i can say. Well thank you three of you for didn't think that i am i childish and useless person! Thank you! Love is sometime a very powerful thing in life. And i thank god for it.

ANNOYING~

2011-09-21T03:41:00.003+08:00

well today's topic ~annoying~ ermmm annoying like me~ i think i really need to just shut my mouth.. i kept thinking that i am fucking annoying.. sry to use the F word but i seriously think that way.. i can see people are getting tired of me. getting pissed at me... although people said they weren't when i start asking them..but i just seriously felt it. maybe my feelings are wrong. nvm. maybe one day the whole world will start hating me~ thn i will be like well done i did really make the whole world hate me.. i am indeed really very .... damns...i need someone by my side telling me that i am not annoying. but no one did that.. maybe everyone just hates me. hate me for being so retarded.. someone told me this today.

" you live for yourself, not people around you, being good to yourself is being good to us."

really agree with this words but my mind just cared for other people thn myself. i always care about people first thn myself. but people always think that i am annoying. because i cared for them.. maybe too much care will lead to *annoying* dunno anyway this post isn't saying anyone,anybody. but all my thinking.. i need someone to talk to but no one is there so i am saying all this to my blog. my blog is the only that that i can turn to. as for the kor i was talking about recently well he did care for me but he is abit busy now. didn't wan to disturb him. because i don wan to make another person hates me. so i better type everything here maybe i will feel better... well i am not emo-ing. i just feels really uncomfortable to keep everything inside me.. so i just want to voice everything out. i really feels like shouting! but is 4.00am in the morning. so i better SHUT! haha ok erm i am actually done with today's topic. see you tomorrow my blog! haha i decided to SMILE! because i promise someone that i will SMILE!

Stronger

2011-09-19T04:59:00.001+08:00

Ok. Today topic. Stronger. Building a relationship stronger is like building your muscles in the gym. To make you look stronger you yourself have to train hard to build it. Same goes to relationships be it brotherhood sisterhood or even couples. You are to work hard to understand each other so to prevent fights. Like me and my kor. Still trying hard to build a stronger brotherhood with him. Like today he was not feeling well and he loses his temper on me. But i didn't get angry because i understand why he loses his temper. Because i have been trying real hard to understand him and know him more. Today is the 4th or 5th day i know kor kor already forgotten my days was really happy with him around so didn't went to remember is when. Ha.i going to find him in singapore soon. Well hope he will be happy to see me! Whateve it is i will be damm happy to see him! Ok remember build your relationship with your love! Ok cya night everyone.

YOU! MOST IMPORTANT!

2011-09-18T10:37:00.001+08:00

Yeah today's topic YOU! Who is the YOU am i talking about? His name desmond! My one and only precious brother in my life now. Found out the real meaning of the word happiness after i meet him. Where do you find someone reminding you every second to rest except your mum and dad? He reminds me every second. Now he seems to be part of my life. Thanks again my blur blur kor kor! =) <---this smile will be on my face as long as you smile too! Smile always!

~love~

2011-09-17T06:20:00.004+08:00

LOVE~ is something everyone needs~ you don't need say you dun need any love that is totally bull shit~ i am a kid that no one would love,since i was young i was not love by my dad. my dad is a really crazy guy when i was about 4years old my mum works to support the family. me and my dad. every one else have a loving dad. but mine?. i was beaten almost everyday and was chased out of the house to sleep on the road during mid night where everyone is sound alseep. i was siting outside my house waiting for mummy to come back so that i could get into the house. when mummy get back home is already 3am in the morning~ other then that i was often bring to a shopping center thn left there alone~ and lucky enough i know the way home...you would say i may be telling stories~but this is all true~ thn this continue till i was 5years old~ my mum decided to leave my dad with me~ thn we left for few months my dad meet with an accident he bang his motor onto a bull and pass away~ from there i was send to singapore to study~ till now~ everyday in singapore was misery. i was missing my mum real badly everyday meet many problem in school all i can do is bear with it~ i told myself this will be over real soon. primary school was fun and childish year. secondary school was a real experience year for me. the five years in secondary school makes me notices who are my real friends and who are not~ i have been backstab i was being betrayed my "friendS" i was being said that i was a bad friend. i was say to be a bad person in every one's eyes~ pain in the heart is actually a everyday thing. tears flowing down my eyes is a everyday thing too~ till sec 5 my family has some family problems so i decided to quit school. but no one understand they thought i just don't wan to study. i wish to have O level cert like you guys. but who understand that my family needs me~ only some of them~ thn i starting working in malaysia. i found out that malaysia was a hard place to live in but i got no choice i have to bear with it again. because i believe that one day i can lead my happy life like everyone else having groups of friends that cared and love me~ few months back i start playing ddtank a game that i meet lots of friends but no one is truely to be friends. they will want you to give benefits to them in game. so i thought i couldn't be here long. after all is just a game~ thn one day someone said this to me " everyone started being noob, everyone failed in doing everything, no one when the day when they are born they already know how to walk" this words althought is common sense but it touches me real deeply. that is when i know there are actually nice people out there.. so i decided to play this game~ the more i play the more friends i get and now i have group of friends that we helped each other in everything now we have become powerful. but when everyone got powerful they will get another group of friends and i was slowly unnoticed. thn i felt so lonely that everyone just didn't wan to help me. everyone gets my help and disappear~ be good guy that is what all i get in the end. until two days ago i was playing this game with one of my friend and this guy was invited in to our room at first thought he is so powerful he must be very "action" means very bossy but guess what after knowing he was elder thn me~ i thought that i can get to know more friends since he was from singapore~he i starting treating him like my big brother. he treats me like a younger brother. i was pestering him everyday he didn't mind he didn't even think that i was very annoying he showed me he cared for me at that moment i was so touch deeply. i felt i meet the right person i felt i did the right thing playing this game~ this game bought us together ~

TO:KOR
kor~ this may be abit GAY! but i still going to say it. The day we know each other i felt the brother love you had for me~ ermmm as in i know you really cared about me. i thought you was just messing around~ or even trying to entertain me. but i asked for your phone number you gave straight away. from that i know you really wanted me as your brother. from young i always wanted a elder brother like you. a brother that will care will help me in every way. you gave me the care i always wanted~ you gave me the love no one ever gave to me except my mum but i wanted a brother ever since i was young i wanted a brother i can share all my worries and happiness with. i CAN SAY i FOUND IT! finally althought we are not blood brothers but i thought we can be like blood brothers right? that what i think larh i dunno how you would think but i really want to thank you for the cared this few days when i was really down when i was lock in the darkness where no one dares to come into and save me. you are the one that came in like a hero to save me from darkness pull me back when i was suppose to go~ the time where i was chatting with you i think i am so blessed to have a big brother like you~ waiting for your whats app became my everyday thing~ thank you so much for trusting in me too. thank you for everything. i love you(as a brother) muacks~
your precious didi : jeff

i finally let everything of my past and now out of my chest~ i have never told anyone about my childhood~ because i am scared that no ones wants to be friend with me~ but now i am not scared at all because i believe my bro is not going to disown me because of this. i have faith in this~ thanks about bro!

What goes up must come down

2011-09-16T15:06:00.000+08:00

Everyday laughing,smiling doesn't mean i am happy. Yes i am happy but i have weak times. Have not eaten since last night and not asleep yet still now.who knows i am in pain? Nobody.. Keeping all the pain in my heart. Didn't wanna say it to anyone because i didn't want anyone to take my pain with me. I wish i was the only one suffering, i don't wish to see people around unhappy. But who is there to care? No one. I am alone so alone. Feels like shouting out all the pain. But nothing seems to help at all. Wish i could just disappear. Who will be sad when i really disappear? I bet nobody is gotta be sad and nobody gotta miss me too. Hai... Wanna sleep but my emotion is stopping me! My blog is the only one i can write all my pain but it still doesn't help at all. Is so hard to be human being. Why am i having this kind of thinking. I am really tired , tired of everything , tired of being throw again and again. I don't want to get anything in return after helping people.. But.....hai.... ..

Tears~

2011-09-16T06:52:00.001+08:00

Tears is what flowing out of me~not because i broken with any girl or rejected. I am being left alone at a corner no one is just here to comfort me~i know i am weak i have been strong to hold on my tears not letting it to flow out of me anymore but i am tired seriously tired i need a helping hand to pull me back to where i was but nobody was here. Who can i share my emotion with? Everyone is so busy with their own stuff lately.. I felt so left out.. Helping others with love with all my strength but i am still being throw away after used.. What can i do! Everyone has someone to care for them but i am left in a corner crying.. Who knows? No one maybe i am not good enough to be love and care. Maybe i am just some useless freak that nobody is gotta care~  Today the day where my heart dies~ is never gotta be the same again=(

=(

2011-09-16T06:36:00.001+08:00

Joseph Vincent – If You Stay Lyrics

I was standing on the other side
watching you leave and I,
couldn’t see you go

Know that I was so sincere
when I said I need you here
cause this is your home

You’re the one my everything
If you stay you’ll make me sing

I’ll give you my life
I’ll give you my heart
and nothing will ever come between us,
ever come between us tonight
I’ll show you the way, Just promise me that you’ll
Promise me that you’ll stay

When you’re with me I feel so alive
You’re the bonnie to my clyde
We can paint the town

http://www.hotnewsonglyrics.com/joseph-vincent-if-you-stay-lyrics.html

But you’re so far (ohhh)
You’re so far (woah ohhh)
And that can’t even hold me down

You’re the one my everything
If you stay you’ll make me sing

I’ll give you my life
I’ll give you my heart
and nothing will ever come between us,
ever come between us tonight
I’ll show you the way, Just promise me that you’ll
Promise me that you’ll stay

gotta change~

2011-08-31T18:52:00.003+08:00

Gotta change my hairstyle to this above...sorry for not updating blog for sooooo long =).. been sick for this few days..got through lots of stuff...thinking of starting a new life, never thought of anything at all till that day i was sick. need to get a big change! first i gotta change my hairstyle then colour, then gotta change my attitude towards life. seen lots of people complaining about life recently,

-complain about studies

-complain about friends

-complain about work

-complain about sickness

-complain about people around.

-complain about family

-complain complain complain!

instead of complaining, why not think about what are you going to deal with it. complaining is going to get you no where... and sometimes getting people to change, have you ever think that you are actually is the one that needs to change?! sometimes changing yourself will gives you a better work place, better friends, better in everything that you think is not perfect. no one is perfect anyway. no one can do things till its perfect. what's important is you be happy and you know that you have already do your best in the things you wanted to do! most important you must be HAPPY with the things you do..

Before complaining,think about the people that are worst then you in other part of the world.. people suffering from

-Natural Disasters?

-hunger?

-broken family?

-single parents family?

etc..

there are actually lots of other people that are actually suffering now? when you can't finish or even complain about the food that you are eating have you thought about people that are suffering from hunger, people that are trying to find food when they can't even have the strength to move and walk? and you are here wasting your food? so before doing anything think about are you going to finish doing it? are you going to make it to the end? if no thn don't even start instead use the time to do something that you actually wants and you can do? people stop complaining. and start thinking about what to do...

ok done with blogging!!! PEACE OUT (Y)

Ouchh

2011-08-22T05:09:00.001+08:00

Hi people back to blog was really busy with stuff lately. Was busy finding mic for recording! Gotta do some covers haven got the chance to record now. Because i haven't got the mic yet. Hmmm well sorry for not updating my blog for so long.. I'm back for now. Hmmm i hurt my neck due to not sleeping properly. Hmmm hope to recover tomorrow because it hurts real bad. Is really giving me a bad time. It just hurt for every little thing i do! Damm i hate it..ok done with updating! Shall get to sleep now.PEACE!

MUSIC NEVER SLEEPS!

2011-08-13T18:14:00.004+08:00

Back to blog! well recently i am GLUED to jason chen's music covers! somehow is has the power for me to move on! and to work hard for my dream..my dream is so far... i trying every way to reach it! sing sing sing!!! talks about singing now i pretty sad today.. after i seen lots of covers that jason chen did.. 1st:my voice is bad for singing TODAY! 2nd:i need a better quality mic that jason chen use! i need it so badly! these are the main reasons that why i can't do my cover! damn! i need so many things!!! i need so much money! i need some many things... how i wish money drops from the sky... * impossible* i will save up money to buy a mic so that i can do my recording... from today onwards! i will remember a phrase! MUSIC NEVER SLEEPS!!! i will try my best to make good music for you all=) all i need you to do is be more patient.. thank you so much!<3 ok done with my post for today.. shall blog again soon! see ya PEACE!

Tiredness..

2011-08-10T04:33:00.001+08:00

Now a days really busy sorry for not updating my blog for such a long time. Ha. Back to blog but so tired. Using my phone to blog so this sort won't be long.. Hmmm currently listening to "my girl" ha. Hmmm today was singapore's birthday! Was really disappointed because i can't celebrate it in singapore=) singapore is a place i grow up and learn lots of things! So singapore is the best in my heart! I love you singapore! Shall blog tomorrow! Night~ PEACE!

black and white=)

2011-07-31T18:32:00.003+08:00

Back to blog with my laptop... haven been blogging with my laptop for a long long time.. because i kept using my phone to do it.. so i can only post some short post.. but for now i need to post some thoughts that is damn long.. so i needa use laptop to do so..ok start with the topic today.. ==black and white==
i read a post from a friend talking about his life.people not caring for him. well after reading i actually thought of it myself.. is similar to what happens to me when i was in secondary school.." i cared for others but who is there to care for me" this sentence is always what i will say when i was in secondary. actually this is life. sometimes you see your friend being sad, being hurt by someone close to them, you actually feels the hurt.because they are our friends too..then you think of all ways to make them happy. after a while they feels much better thn they starts to forget who is the one that makes them feels better.. The next day when you are sad and hurt in one corner there isn't anyone that notices that you are sad or hurt at all. you seems to be transparents out of sudden... is that what you call friends?? not even a simply care is notices.. when you go out with a group of good friends. when you starts to emo behind no one even notices that you are all alone behind.. slowly you begin to be more far away with the group.. who cares? who notices that you are actually behind.. no one... only yourself knows that...
sometimes your friends said "hey help me buy XXX for me thanks..." you did it because he/she is your friend is just buying something.. nothing big.. the next day you begin to say "hey can help me buyXXX??" they answer you" you got no leg arh? can't you do it yourself?" this is the kind of reply you get when you ask some friends to buy something for you.. but when they ask you to do it, you did it without even complaining..! am i a maid to you? no.. but why am i being treated this way?? who can actually read what are your friends thinking about? no one.. who can we share our sorrow with? no one.. who can we cry to? no one.. when you start a friendship with a friend sometimes they always say"Don't worry i will be here to share your pain and unhappy things with you.."end up? no one even care?! My life is like black and white=( friends are just people studying with me..
but after sometimes.. you think back.. they are actually looking out on everything you do.. some friends just don't know how to express their care to you.. that is the reason why they didn't care and ask.. because they are afraid that they may hurt you by saying things that didn't have any effect of comforting you.. they rather not speak..when you have people finding you trouble, the people that care helping you are always your friends?! so my life became colourful because of all my friendS! so... friends is the best.. when you have the right friends! you will stay as happy as always! sometimes communication is the key to better friendship! talk to your friends more they may understand you even more! moral of story, treasure all your friends around you!

Part 2 of friends!

2011-07-29T02:58:00.001+08:00

I said i gotta do part 2 today! Just a question, what do friends means to you? Friends means lots to me.. Friends are always the most important in my life, when i am sad sometimes friends are the only one that shared my sadness with me. So friends are for you to care and love. Not to be insulted and hurt by you, so treasure all your friend before they are gone.. Ok done with my topic. Well today no more photos from bigbang. Ha. Is me! Ha. Anyway i would like to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALVIN! Happy birthday stay happy and smile always! Don't worry you have me when you are sad. I'll be there! Ha. Friends are gold to me! PEACE!

Bigbang forever.

2011-07-28T05:43:00.001+08:00

Came to update my blog! Since it seems so dead. I gotta stop posting up bigbang's photo. I shouldn't say stop but cutting down on it. Because this seem more like bigbang's fans page rather then my blog. Ha.but don't worry i will still remain as a VIP ALWAYS! Ha. Yesterday saw alvin's really hurt by the comments on his blog. So did comfort him.. That person, really has no brains at all. I suspect that his head are filled with coconut juice! I seriously has no comments about these people recently. Continuously insulting people commenting on people's look. Is like where did the manners your parents teacher you? Don't tell me your parents never taught anything about the word RESPECT? hey kids out there you seriously needs to BANG your bloody head against the walk real real hard to wake yourself up.. People are living happily with the way they wants to live then you just bloody open your useless mouth to do something to hurt him/her..this is only part 1 i shall continue tomorrow with part2

Birthday is over!

2011-07-26T04:25:00.001+08:00

Birthday is over! You sure asked how did i spend my birthday? Haha i spend my birthday watching movie at home! Watched [NINETEEN] act by seungri and top. Nice movie touching.. Ermmm that movie really teach me lots of things in life..no matter what dream you have you must go for it no matter who stops you. Yes! I going for my dream no matter wad! To be a singer! Yeah. Shall talk more tomorrow. Ha. Needa sleep! Remember to go for your dream! One time failure doesn't means is the end! Keep trying! Lets work together! Peace!

Back to blog!

2011-07-23T06:09:00.001+08:00

Two more days to my birthday! Should say less then 24 hours. This year i didn't expect my birthday to come so soon.. Maybe it seem that i am getting older! Damm! Ha. Last time when you wish that you could grow up quickly! But when you reach a age you would wish that your birthday never comes! So people that is young now don't ever wish that you could grow up quickly! Enjoy your youth days! Ha. Ok done with blogging today! Going to sleep already goodnight people! PEACE!

Come as you are=)

2011-07-22T05:24:00.001+08:00

Back to blog. Today's title, come as you are, i think this title is real meaningful. Come as you are, no matter who hates you for who you are, you have the only right to decide who you are.you don't have to change for anyone. Be yourself, people who loves you will loves your everything no matter friends or partner, if they really loves you they will accept your everything! Done with today's topic! Something about myself. Just bathe preparing to sleep. 2more days to my 20th birthday! Time really fly..i am afraid i can't catch up with time any sooner.. Don't worry i will stay strong..VIPS has always be my strength and will always be! Bigbang too! Bigbang gives me strength to keep going for my dream! I will keep trying and trying! I have the same dream as all singer is to have a stage of my own and touch many people's heart with my song! Ok done with today's blogging! PEACE(Y)

Is never too late!

2011-07-14T04:17:00.001+08:00

Is never too late to apologise to people that is still around and you did something that is not wrong. Because that person is still around don't wait till when someone is gone then you wish that you said that sorry earlier! By that time is already too late. So do it now. People is not too late now! Go! I shall say sorry to you too! I'm really sorry for what i did! Sorry sorry..i shall not write your name because i know that you don't like i put your name... Ok done with blogging now. Shall blog again tomorrow! Remember to apologise! PEACE!

Back to blog...

2011-07-13T17:29:00.005+08:00

back to blog.

lots of things happen.. things happen so sudden that changes alot in my life..

thinking real hard what can i do next in my life.. thinking what can i really do.. gotta start a different life from now on.. thinking of alots of things.. i cannot break down at this moment.. no one is here to support the family anymore. i am the only one that can support the family... i have to be strong i have to do what i am support to do! i need to think of the days ahead not the days that have passed. don't worry VIPS and FRIENDS i will be fine in no time.. i will be back with a happy post.. i am sure of that.. a word of advise to guys like to fool around outside... doing stupid things like having woman behind your wife or girlfriend..no matter how you gotta play never take every things around your for granted. and i think is better not to fool around outside behind your family!! be faithful to your family is the most important things. being a man is the responsibility to take all the things that you have done. never blame other for what is happening to you.. for all that is happening to you, you can only blame yourself...when you have problem outside family member is the only one that will help you and support you to the end... think about what your family member has did for you.. don't always think about what your wife or whoever did something that makes your angry or whatever. sometime everyone did somethings for a reason.. so think before you act..think before you do something foolish..think about what will happen if you do something that is not right...for all that i say ,moral of the story is BE A RESPONSIBLE MAN! not a man that every woman will hates.. done with blogging will blog again soon... bye people. PEACE(Y)

Top bias is back!

2011-07-10T22:19:00.001+08:00

I am back to blog! Sorry for not blogging for so long. Really busy now a days! Ha plus family having some problems so really can't find time to blog need time to get use to the change. So will blog often! Ha. Really tired now a days! Plus real happy because taeyang have been twitting now a days! I was worrying about bigbang after some incident! Now a now that taeyang is in LA working on his solo then i feel more relax! Bigbang fighting! Vips are always with you! Bigbang and vips rocks!

Into the fire

2011-07-05T06:00:00.001+08:00

Into the fire! I just watch it today although i am kind of slow to watch it but i am real happy to see TOP! I said that the show is nice not because there is TOP, but the story is wonderful. Being soldier is kind of scary! You are prepare to lose your life for your country anytime. But being able to lose my life and save the country is a very proud thing to do! Should really watch this movie if you haven! This movie teaches me lots of things that we will meet in life! I rate this movie 10stars out of 10stars! If you know me well i don't watch war movie at all because i find it kind of boring! But this movie really make me feels like watching it again! So is a must to watch especially VIPS!

Fighting bigbang!

2011-06-26T06:18:00.001+08:00

After hearing wad is going to happen to daesung my heart really sunk to the bottom. At the moment i was really sad and shock. And confuse at the same time. Really don't know wad i can do to help! No matter wad vips will stay as vips always! Because we do love bigbang! So don't worry! Everything will be fine! BIGBANG FOREVER!

Kimchi

2011-06-21T04:46:00.001+08:00

Yeah back to blog without a bigbang's picture! Now with a big box of kimchi! Well you think i bought it no i made it myself! Really really nice! Ha i am very proud of myself! Still learning alot of things about korean food, because i will be going to stay over real soon so really need to learn to eat their food! Yeah so when i will get use to the lifestyle there! Anyway korean food is all ver delicious! I swear! I am doing the kimchi beef soup tml! Will post up the picture tml mayb! Yeah ok. That all for today! See ya again tml! Peace

my princess!

2011-06-20T18:25:00.000+08:00

my princess pictures

Back

2011-06-20T02:53:00.001+08:00

Jeffrey is back! Well..alot of things happen during the weekdays. Hmmm not going to say any of it here. Because i personal think there isn't a need to, anyway have been twitting all the while. Yeah. Didn't really got de time to blog. Working hard, dancing hard. O ya. Have been watching channel 8, 9o'clock show damm nice and quiet touching. First singapore drama that makes me tears. So nice. You people should really watch it! Ok done with blogging. Shall post up some video on my blog tml! Remember to continue tagging! Love ya PEACE!

Korea's Got Talent Sung-Bong Choi

2011-06-14T02:23:00.000+08:00

people should stop complaining about their life... look at this hyung and you will know why people should stop complaing..

Back!

2011-06-12T04:32:00.001+08:00

Annyeong! I am back! Hmmm today nothing much happen actually. Nothing to do always do the usual things. I don't have to say much you should know. Anyway, saving up money to sweep all clothing in korea when i am there in a few weeks time! Ha. Hmmm yeah. Tml is sunday again! So fast! Time really fly, ok la. I will be doing some important stuff tml. Will not tell you wad pictures will be done after i finish doing it! ok done with today ~fighting~

Nothing change!

2011-06-11T06:37:00.001+08:00

Nothing changed! I am still very sick! Damm. Woke up at 12pm today went to blogtv to talk to anndrew, conversation ended at about 2plus. Then i went to update my vips about bigbang. Then went to play ddtank. Play till 830pm went out with mummy to buy some stuff. Reach home about 945pm. Then waited for 20minute for the dream concert on kpop online stream but is damm damm lag because there are 3000plus viewers after awhile i notice that i can watch KBSW with astro ! Ha is more easier, after dream concert watch 2days 1night was laughing all the way! I shall stop talking like a time table! Ha. If not i think you guys will fall asleep. Ha. Ok la blog till here tml i will blog again! Yeah. Goodnight vips! ~fighting~

Seungri shows you how to eat fried chicken deliciously

2011-06-11T02:10:00.000+08:00

jachohjac:

First, you pose with the chicken,

then, you bite off huge chunks,

and lastly, you chomp on it really hard

Pray

2011-06-10T05:33:00.001+08:00

My title today is pray. First i need vips to pray for dae sung hope he will recover back to the cheerful daesung hyung we always see. Then secondly i need people to pray for me! I am very sick at the moment i can't even hold my phone properly. I am having a very bad flu and every things that have holes on my body seem to be blocked! Damm. I can hardly breath now both my nose is blocked! Then having bad sore throat can't really breath with my mouth. Damm i hope i can recover soon better be tomorrow. Ok done i needa rest. ~fighting~

Annyeong!

2011-06-09T04:15:00.001+08:00

Annyeong everyone! The picture above is a book of bigbang. I am ordering it from YGE SHOP anyway today nothing much happen. Really sick today. Doing the same old thing giving my vips the lastest update about bigbang! So ya. They call me their boss today! I was like lol why call me boss they say because the group belong to me and i give the fastest and lastest update of bigbang! I was touch because this is the first time people appreciate wad i do for them. Thanks vips my days with you guys is filled with colours! Thanks thats all for today! ~fighting~

A fist is made up of five fingers!

2011-06-08T02:29:00.001+08:00

Well. Didn't blog yesterday because really busy helping mummy with the dumpling the picture i will post it up soon. Now my laptop is giving me problem again. Damm. Feel like throwing it away. But i can't i have to give my vips the lastest update! So can't live without it. So have to bear with it! My vips is more important! Ok real tired now needa rest. Goodnight vips! ~fighting~

Boy GD LETTING YA KNOW.~

2011-06-06T04:25:00.001+08:00

Back to blog! I am changing my hair colour to this colour! Yeah! Hmmm today went to shopping with mummy! Spend about 140dollar well by jus going out awhile already spend so much money! Tml is a new start of a week! Hopefully well be fine! Hmmm ok done with blogging. Blog again tml! See ya, ~fighting~

Is time! Really.

2011-06-05T05:27:00.001+08:00

Back to blog! Using my house boardband to get online with my phone! Yeah! Change my internet connection to new one. Is so much faster! Plus i can connect it with my phone at the same time! Most important is much cheaper!well is really time to change my computer! Is damm getting on my nerves! Mummy says she is going to get me a ipad next month! Yeah! Anyway the picture above is made by me so don't copy it! Only vip can do so! If you are not! Jus shoo off you go without copying! Yeah ok done with blogging. Blog again tml! Cya vips!

Daesung ~fighting~

2011-06-01T04:01:00.001+08:00

I shall not continue the topic i said on the previous post, today is about daesung! He was involve in an accident yesterday midnight, the police is still investigating on the cast. So shall not talk more but. All i want to say that daesung will be fine all vips will keep praying from now. And to all ANTIS! I will kindly appreciate if you can shut the hell up! Stop adding oil to fire! Jus kindly buy a mirror and take a clear look at yourself before you start opening your bloody mouth and talk about others! You people is jus simply jealous that bigbang is too famous is it? If not follow your idol and shut your mouth! That all i have to say for today! Daesung hyung stay strong! Vips will pray for you and be with you always! ~fighting~

A disgrace to man,

2011-05-30T02:12:00.001+08:00

Back to blog. Starting off with the topic disgrace to man! Well things happy recently. Man? Wad do you think of man? Me as a guy think that as a man he should love his LOVE ONE with his life and no matter wad you will not give ur heart to anyone else. That is wad i call a man. People always say when man have money they starts to find woman outside. That's is wad i call a disgrace to man! Money? Money is all the girls that decided to have affair with a married man wants. Money is wad they think about, so foolish man would start spending money on this kind of woman! But when your pocket is starting to be empty, she starts to avoid you and disappear..so is that wad you disgrace man call LOVE? Please wake up and be a man! Ok topic is half way done will continue tml! Cya! ~fighting~

wedding dress

2011-05-25T22:46:00.001+08:00

Lyrics | Tae Yang lyrics - Wedding Dress lyrics

STRESS!

2011-05-25T17:34:00.002+08:00

I am stress!!!! and i am back to blog! stress up due to many things. i shall not say it more here.. i dun wanna to stress myself even more!! now a days i get pissed by little things! little things like people nagging at my ears..stress up by dance class too.. jus can't get my moves right! ahhhh i need help! i have been doing some things that is not stress which is having all my VIPS at my side and cheering me up! thanks VIPS! without you guys i think i will break down.. thanks for the wonderful moments! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!! will be flying to korea soon. i need go there send some gift to YG. thn go shopping. and see whether i can see BIGBANG! well.. ok done with today's blogging will blog again tml and later.. thanks for visiting my blog too! LOVE YA!

Tired!

2011-05-20T05:38:00.001+08:00

Soooooo tired.. But still back to blog.. Today went to night market with mummy.. The vegetable there is damn cheap..the person there say i give you one plastic bag no matter how much you stuff it cost only 2RM mummy went like crazy.. Stuff and stuff... But eating vegetable is good for health!went so tired after carrying so much stuff.. Went facebook and manage my BIGBANG'S VIP account. Giving the lastest update of bigbang! Too much update at a time keep updating!anyway i have fun doing it because is bigbang! Thanks for a'l VIPS patient of waiting for update and understanding!thank you people so much! Ok.. Done blogging for today. Shall blog again tml.. See ya BIGBANG ROCKS MY LIFE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAEYANG HYUNG!

2011-05-18T04:41:00.001+08:00

Taeyang hyung happy 24th birthday! Hope you have a wonderful birthday, continue to make lovely song for all vips! We will keep supporting you! Other then taeyang! Today is siti's birthday! Happy birthday too siti! Hope you become more and more pretty everyday! Ok done wishing both. Ha. Now talk about today! Hmmm today i woke up and i went to check my facebook guess wad? I think nobody's facebook is going to be like mine! I got 45notification at once! I was like omg! After becoming the admin of bigbang's vip and BIGBANG'S VIP i think i stayed busy the whole day when i am infront of the computer. So busy updating bigbang's lastest news. Updating the lastest update of wad happen to bigbang! Damm busy all i do is check copy paste. But sound so easy but is something very difficult to manage! But lucky i got nice VIPS helping me with the lastest update if not i think i will go crazy! Well done for today. Shall blog again tml! Night everyone!

2 more days!

2011-05-16T12:57:00.002+08:00

2 more days to taeyang hyung's birthday! hmmm i going to send my letter to YG BUILDING later! yeah.. anyway didn't have time to update! really busy doing BIGBANG'S stuff! drawing?! i going to print T-shirt! i gotta update my blog with long post after i am done with my bigbang stuff.. i going to korea soon too. anyone wanna to send any gift to YG can contact me! i can help you send or i can give you the address!!! haaa ok done with my blogging will blog again later!

6 more days!

2011-05-13T01:44:00.000+08:00

6 more days to taeyang hyung's birthday! yeah. may send gift to YG building for TAEYANG HYUNG! so yarh...today nothing happen actually.. well ok larh blog again tml...

My happiness = Her happiness

2011-05-11T03:22:00.002+08:00

jeffrey is back! today lots of things happen. seeing lots of emo and pissed off post on facebook. as for me i added lots of vips on facebook. and i notice that all vips are as kind as i never think of. A vip ask me some question just now. well.. one of the question really got me thinking.. thinking real deep.. she ask me a question about taeyang's MV. she asked " if you were taeyang in his Mv wad will you do?" i gave it a real deep thought and i answered "me? At first i would thought of snatch the girl from the guy. but come to think of it. i think i will do as taeyang do. because if she is happy i would be happy too.. " if you asked me a million times about this i would still say the same thing. MY happiness = HER happiness.. yeah. well thanks vip really got me thinking about this question... thanks lots... ok i shall stop here... blog again tml..

watch letter from bigbang's mum to bigbang!

2011-05-09T03:08:00.003+08:00

watch a show from korean call "come to play" the esp that i watch is about bigbang receive letters from their MUM! anyone dare to say they have never done anything bad that make their parents sad or even hurt?! i bet everyone has. even bigbang have! we are all human is normal to have done things wrong in our life isn't it. and have you seen the weaker side of bigbang? no one has. but when they come to their parents their weaker side starts to appear. well they appear to be strong in front of VIPS but i bet everyone has their weaker side.even robot sometimes have problem. so like wad i always said no one is perfect. no matter how perfect you appear to be you still have ur emotional side of you.some times it appear to be so easy to say i love you to someone you love,but have you stood in front of ur mum or dad and say dad,mum i love you? no? am i right? even me i don't think i have the guts to say it too.. like seungri of bigbang said,"i konw if i say i love you in front of my mum and say i love you she will sure cry for sure i wouldn't wan to do things to make my mum cry". yeah i think that's another reason.some people always think and told me that i think you love bigbang too overly. but i don't think so. i love them no because i am like all GIRLS do so crazy that they want to marry them. now i state the reason.

i love them because i can see they work real hard to make every album a success.
i love them because they are not like other star too proud.
i love them because they sing so well.
i love them because i wanna to be like them,a star that everyone respect.
etc..
etc...

well i don't think i need to say it all i know them in my heart can already. To me they are not like a normal star that i always see on TV?! they are jus different. i wanna be like them,a star that everyone give respect to.*to those that respect them* i think the people that respect that i think is over the population of singpore! well you should know..i believe every superstar work real hard to give us the best music. behind every photo,the thousand pose they have to pose to make. well is easy for us to jus look at the photo but the hard work is alot behind it. as for the music that we listen to the hard word behind it is equally alot. so i respect all the singer and stars. i don't insult any of the star with nasty words or i dun even insult them. For people that do that think about wad yourself before you start to PING PANG PONG and start to scold and say nasty words to every star.. they have parents like you too.. think about how their parents feel before you speak! you should simply understand the word respect! yeah i think i don't wanna to be too naggy i shall stop here. bye people

Looking forward,

2011-05-08T03:55:00.002+08:00

If i were to be like taeyang standing at the top of the highest building, i would scream my lungs out. Well is a very good way to release stress! I choose not to be like people that don't treasure life. Because if i were to be like them i would have to jump, NO WAY! i have a bright future in front of me! I wanna to be a superstar that everyone respect! Like bigbang, which star doesn't work 1000times hard? To be a star is my dream since i was young, people would say STOP DREAMING KID but i believe that if you work real hard there is nothing impossible. Dream bring you a good future and pushes you to reach your dream very soon. I always tell myself i can do it. Because i have faith in myself. I am going be a star that shines and touches people's heart! No matter who you are, where are you from. We have our right to work hard for our dream. One time failure doesn't means is the end! Every failure i believe make you stronger! Yes wad are you waiting for! Work hard for your dreams! Yeah!

Pray,

2011-05-07T04:02:00.001+08:00

Jeff.vip is back to blog. Well bigbang should be asleep already lets pray that japan's earthquake would jus stop. Today i notices bigbang importances in my life! Bigbang gave me the strength to start my day everyday. Even myself can't believe that bigbang can really give me that strength. But is really true. Bigbang is the one that have my day lighten up everyday. I will never forget and stop supporting bigbang because they are so important in my life! I will work hard like how bigbang work hard to make after music for vips! Yeah! Rock on bigbang!  Ps, no one can be compare to bigbang because they are the best!

Bigbang's poison!

2011-05-06T01:49:00.001+08:00

Jeffrey vip is back to blog! Well today know alot of things about bigbang! Ha. I am abit pissed off today because somebody in facebook doesn't have the balls to shoot me right infront of my face! Damm why am i so pissed? Because i think by being bigbang's vips admin i got the right to post lastest update about bigbang for my vips to look at right vips? For instant i post it up on my own wall, wad has that gotta do with you? Not as if i post it up on your wall. Damm. Don't like then hide my post. Or you can even delete me, not as if i care! Everyone got their right of posting anything up on their own wall, that's all i can say that person should know who am i talking about!  P/s:vips,when other people insult bigbang, we should stay calm and smile. Because people are jus simply jealous and think that bigbang is awesome.we don't have to talk much to people that don't seem to know the word respect!  -jeff.vip

BIGBANG

2011-05-05T12:58:00.001+08:00

PLEASE VOTE FOR BIGBANG!!!! THANKS!

2011-05-05T02:46:00.000+08:00

Be as cool as top!

2011-05-04T01:38:00.001+08:00

Well back to blog with a new skin again! Sorry for too much bigbang, can't blame me i love bigbang! If you have facebook account, and you are bigbang's fans! Please go find a group call bigbang's vip and add it thanks! Or you can visit www.bigbangrocksourlife.blogspot.com to tag and see the lastest update! Any request can tag i will change accordly thanks! Anyway both group and web is created by me, so ya. Support bigbang not me! Ha. So ya, vips forever! Well done with today's posts will blog again tml! Bye and goodnight VIPS! Love ya,

SKIN CHANGED!

2011-05-02T23:09:00.003+08:00

jeffrey's back to blog! today lots of things happen! change my blogskin. i didn't want people to see my blog already feels boring. so decided to change it. well today quarrel with mummy. damn guilty. i didn't know wad got into me. i jus went on shouting and shouting! damn i feel so guilty. anyway ALL VIPS all over the world. add me in facebook thanks! ha i wanna know all VIP FROM ALL OVER THE WORLD! because we share the SAME THING IN THE WORLD! WHICH IS LOVING BIGBANG! yeah! well blog till here..

P/S:VIPS ALL ROCKS!

when is bigbang coming?!

2011-04-30T18:42:00.003+08:00

jeffrey is back to blog.. with a pissed off and happy mix feeling! dance lesson ended! so pissed off wih the bloody late comer! damn who do you think you are?! KING? next time wanna be late plaease don't come! anyway few more days going be our group BIG SHOW?! dance test! this time is wedding dress i scared that i am so going FAIL! but i have confident in myself! k blog again later

KIM SUHANMOO EOBUGIWA DURUMI
SAMCHEONGAPJA DONGBANGSAK WORIWORI SARISARISENTA
-T.O.P

VICTORY!

2011-04-29T23:17:00.002+08:00

Back to blog with a better mood i guess.. Forget is something i always do. but now I BECAME THE VICTORY OF REMEMBERING YOU! oh my god, i need something to deleted you from my mind. i fill my day today with BIGBANG watching video the whole day. making full use of the time. never want to have time to think of you! My internet connection seem like it knows that i am in a blue mood and know that i needed the connection to be faster. well i can't expect that the connection would be fast everyday. Still thinking of what to do tml. rmb that i have dance class tomorrow. will be continue to pratice WEDDING DRESS from taeyang! now i have to forget forget forget! will be getting a new job soon. well will update on u guys again! i know no one will come to see my blog. but i know someone that promise to be my listening ear would. i believe and hope too. ok done with blogging today!

At the end of this road there's the world we desire. Don't wait until the world hands you what you want.Instead , shout to the world. be fearless and confident like a youth
-BIGBANG♥

black and white=/

2011-04-28T12:28:00.002+08:00

My world has become black and white once again. never expect it will come so soon. you came into my world and fill it with colours. but now you turn it back to black and white again. it has jus went back to when it started. i am back to square one back to where i started. i gave you the word UNDERSTANDING but who is here to understand me? no one. i need a listening ear. but no one is here to listen to me. no one was here when i needed someone the most.. now i have to start a new but i didn't know where to start. how can i start my new life without you again. i thought we promise each other that we will walk the journey together. but now you left me walking alone.i guess i will be fine soon.

P/S:If you stand at the window we stand before,walk the path we walk before,will you still remember the sweet memories that we had together? will you still miss me? i miss you i love you i really do.

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2011-04-28T00:46:00.001+08:00

BIGBANG

2011-04-27T11:41:00.003+08:00

back to blog with a excited feeling! yeah i dunno why i am so addicted to BIGBANG! i just woke up but still the same routine WATCH BIGBANG! haa i seriously damn addicted to them dunno why i have never been like that before. last time when i support DBSK i didn't went so addicted to them. but now BIGBANG! ADDICTED DAMN DEEP! i shall SAY JEFFREY GOT THE BIGBANG'S POISON! ha. well yesterday went out with mummy. bought satay home! ha as normal watch bigbang's 2010 BIG SHOW CONCERT. now i don't feel like going to KOREAN MUSIC WAVE on 15th july.. now i feel like waiting for BIGBANG's concert instead! damn! hmmm anyway i going out with baby later again! haa baby going oversea again also. so yarg gotta miss you yarh??! LOVE YOU!

T.O.P

2011-04-26T12:31:00.002+08:00

i am beginning to love T.O.P's VOICE! damn cool damn low damn powerful! well back to blog. i am feeling weak all over! i feel like vomiting i feel like fainting! Is this the end of journey for me? * thinking too much* haaa abit crazy after watching sooooo many BIGBANG's video yesterday! hmm today is ALVIN's BIRTHDAY happy birthday alvin! hope you have a wonderful day a head of you! ok. i am too weak to blog anymore, blog again later. bye people~

HATE IT!

2011-04-23T13:33:00.003+08:00

Jeffrey is back to blog! i am becoming more and more forgetful now a days. seriously.. i need to remember lots of things! well HAPPY 9TH MONTH ANNIVERY BABY ♥ thanks for all that you haven given me thanks for all the colours you fill in my world! ha thanks thanks thanks! I LOVE MY BABY GAL! JEFFREY CHAN ♥ JESSICA WONG with his life! LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!!!!

KOREAN MUSIC WAVE!

2011-04-22T02:17:00.002+08:00

i am so going to KOREAN MUSIC WAVE on 15th july! still finding people that wishes to go with me! haa i wanna go so much! because there is my ♥BIGBANG! yeah.. so wanted to see them! haa hmmm ANYONE THAT WISHES TO GO WITH ME PLEASE TAG ME! OR WRITE ON MY WALL ON FACEBOOK! thanks man! hope someone can go with me! yeah! ok larh blog till here for today!!! blog again tml!

KIM JONG WOOK~ONLY YOU

2011-04-20T12:30:00.001+08:00

geudae mani nal wootgae hago

geudae mani nal kam ssa jweo yo

geudae mani geudae mani

bosuk boda bit naneun geol

haet sal boda nuni booshigo

bada boda maeum i neolbeo yo

geudae mani geudae mani

nareul salgae hane yo

geudae reul manareo go

meona meon byul eul jina seo

ee reo gae meol i dol ah wat na bwayo

sarang ha neun maeum hanaro

ddeo geo wun jeo haet sal cheo reom

shikji ahn neun geu dae eui maeum eul naegae joo saeyo

ganan haet deon nae sarang eul jwo do

neom chidorok joo deon saram

geudae mani geudae mani

naegae haengbok eul jool han saram

geudae nuni ban jjak i neyo

byul i bit naneun geot gat ah yo

geudae ipsool geudae duson

mi woon dega hana objyo

woori seoro dalm ah ga neyo

seoro ae gae haeng bok man joo neyo

geudae ae gae geudae ae gae

hae jool mal i isseo yo

gomapda neun mal haet nayo

woori sarang haneun dong ahn

nan hangsang mianhan maeum ppun in dae

sarang ha neun maeum hanaro

ddeo geo wun jeo haet sal cheo reom

shikji ahn neun geu dae eui maeum eul naegae joo saeyo

ganan haet deon nae sarang eul jwo do

neom chidorok joo deon saram

geudae mani geudae mani

naegae haeng bok eul jool han saram

nae salm eul jeon bu da joon dae do

ah kka wool geot obneun saram

geudae mani geudae mani nae ga sara gal iyu in geol

back!

2011-04-20T03:15:00.004+08:00

well my internet connection is making me pissed off right now! >=( is not only slow! i can't even get into facebook! damn it man! i using my phone as a boardband to surf the net now! ha is even faster thn my internet connection. well. hope tml the internet connection will be fine again! ha.. thw weather is damn hot today! everyone is getting annoy by the weather! haaa i think is my blog got the *like button* i think everyone will like me saying the weather is damn HOT!! well nothing to talk about anyway.! haaa hmmm blog again tml barh! haaa

5years

2011-04-19T15:35:00.003+08:00

This lovely blog of mine have been with me for 5years! time files.. i have been updating my blog for 5years??! 5years before i was still 15years old now i am 20 already time really never wait for people. so more we should sometimes slow down ur foot step and look at the beautiful things around us. by going too fast you will miss lots of beautiful things that happen around us. now looking back to 5year before.. i really grow up alot.. being hurt by many people, and also hurt many people. hmmm come to think of it i think i really regret. but is too late. is already past. well let the past be left behind.now i need to decide for my future.yeah future?! My future is something i look forward to. MY DREAM? my dream is to become a wonderful singer in future. wite and sing nice song and touches many people heart.Will i be able to do that i always ask myself this question. well i am going to SAY YES OF CAUSE!. i believe in myself! i have confidents in myself! i am no longer the jeffrey that have no confident. well thanks to all my teachers and friends that teaches me how to build up confident, growing up for 20year i think is not a easy things. many problem to solve. and struggling to survive every single problem that come your way. yeah i SURVIVE MY 20years of life. i am going to continue to live till i'm 100! haaa thinking too much! ok LOVE MY BLOG!♥

shall stop here

P/S:never give up easily because there are always friends behind you♥

what best?!

2011-04-18T23:57:00.003+08:00

back to blog. i thought i would have a mood for blogging but.. i was wrong.. i am so depressed right now. reason?? i think i lost a friend again. maybe i am jus care too much. i care for people, first people will think that you are "so caring" AT FIRST! but.. after sometimes people may just forget about the care that i did. AND MY CARE BECAME a problem. maybe from now i should just stop caring. i don't CARE because i have a motive?! i don't CARE because I WANTED SOMETHING IN RETURN?! i just simple CARE for all my friends?! what's wrong with that?! i just simply don't understand at all. people always come to me when they are down,all i can do is comfort..thn after PROBLEM come on my way again. Maybe i should just disappear.. i bet no one would care too.. well my disappear as in going to a far away place. *not dying* Maybe i should stop caring for everyone right now?! Maybe i should be a COLD BLOODY from now?! but i can't.i don't bear to see MY FRIENDS being sad! being hurt. so i cared but seem that my care is just causing too much problems.. OH MY GOD! tell me what to do?! i am lost again. oh cool i am once again lost in my own world.FRIENDS??? what are friends??!! i really don't know anymore. i don't wanna care anymore?!! i SHALL MIA SOON.. and for LONG!

shall blog till here..

P/S: jeffrey is no longer the jeffrey that you have known long ago...

DANCE!

2011-04-16T19:37:00.002+08:00

hmmm jus came back from dance studio!My trainer came back from korean. well cool today we learn BIGBANG's tonight.yeah,went to eat dinner with dance mate♥. without them the class wouldn't be fun at all..damn crazy today everyone was damn excited! haa..anyway got things to say here. hmmm i just wanna say sometimes when we face some problem in life there's only two way to do?! first face it and solve it. second is avoid it?! avoiding it is jus something very stupid. by avoiding doesn't solve everything at all.. i think it will make the problem even worst. EVEN WORST by blocking people on facebook?! lol.. i felt is damn funny you know me through ur GF. thn when you break up you block me? i think is damn funny! ha. i think is such a stupid act lor. actually i am not affect by ur act at all but i jus got thought's in me so.. decided to write it down. hmm not trying to pissed you off.. so yarh. if you think the other way round thn i'm SPEECHLESS.=)hmm ok done with me thought now.i bet my thought here will have much problems for me. but i think i did nothing wrong so.. haaaa..not scared. actually meeting henry tml de. but he not coming to johor today liao so..ok larh blog till here.. blog again later... bye~♥

BIGBANG ROCKS!

2011-04-15T21:36:00.003+08:00

me back to blog.. today morning because of tiredness.. i shouted at bro.. sry jen. hmmm anyway. tml GOING BACK DANCE STUDIO LE.! trainer back from korea haaa.. hmmm wonder tml learning wad dance.! haaa no more dance from SNSD! haaaa not because i dun like them but i think i dun like dance gals dance! haaa.. trainer told us that next week we learning taeyang's NA MAN BARA BWA. cool song slow song but nice dance! haaaa... yes love it!

nice! watch it.. hmmm anyway. henry coming tml but not free got dance class.. hmmm mayb sunday i meeting him still dunno.. ha..ok blog later! haaaa i got things to do!!!!!!!

PEACE!

2011-04-15T03:03:00.002+08:00

i am back! (Y)peace! ha... hmmm today nothing much happen! ha.. playing game for the whole day. hmmm lots of people pissed off with facebook ! because FACEBOOK IS DYING ALREADY I GUESS.. got some words to tell emily!

TO:emily

hey hey.. jiayou! no matter what i will be supporting you k? no matter what happen in life you must be strong ok?? i can be the one behind you supporting you pushing you! so.. must stay ahppy always! ok??!!! hmmm jiayou! JEFFREY SUPPORT YOU!

ok. done blogging nothing much to say anyway.. hmm blog again tml.. haaaa... BYE PPL!

Back!

2011-04-14T08:18:00.001+08:00

Back to blog. Hmmm now i got gastric! Ah how can i fall asleep! A very awful feeling! Damm it! Well today went to work. Now jus knock off, trying to get to sleep but can't feel so annoy by gastric that i having now. Ah. Don't know wad to say anymore too ha. Blog again later when i wake up barh. Smile=)

PHONE UPDATED!

2011-04-12T04:14:00.004+08:00

BACK! is 4.19am.Today is the 1month anni of the tsunami of japan! stop everything that you are doing. and do 1minute of silence for all the victim. japan be strong! we as people around also must be strong.no matter what happen we are the family of the earth! without us there wouldn't be EARTH, same goes to us If there ISN'T EARTH there wouldn't be us. so protecting the earth means to protect ourselves from all the natural disasters.well you may think that is call the natural disasters sometimes all this disasters are cause by us human! Go think about it. saving the EARTH isn't too late now. LATE THN NEVER! so SAVE THE WORLD PEOPLE!

FRIENDS

2011-04-11T15:38:00.003+08:00

back to blog.. ha..so bored i shall keep blogging.stupid me i went to say that i going to hide my sickness from her! lol. i forgotten that she look at my blog everyday! now feeling very heavy lor. my head like going to explode! like dying soon! haa. everyday i picture in my blog! dun worry all bigbang member! haa because i love bigbang! recently listening to taeyang's son bring back lots of memory in the past. how i wish that can travel back in time! so that i can treasure things,do my part to love everyone! my stupid behaviour last time was damn bad. i felt guilty for treating all my friends that way. for that i seek ur forgiveness. i know sometimes sorry can solve all things but i am serious in apologizing for my mistakes in the pass.. today a monday a new day of my life every week. every unhappy things last week shall be in the RUBBISH BIN. because today is a new start of a week.. sometimes reading people's blog make my heartbreak. sitting in front of the computer reading the emo post of urs i felt really bad for not doing my part as a friend to keep you always happy. i wish i could be by ur side to comfort you, to share ur pain with you. as a friend i don't wish to see my friend being so hurt by relationship. i'm sorry for not being by ur side to share ur pain with you. sometimes i keep thinking, putting a stop to my study to help my family is it a good decision. is so painful to leave all my friends especially DA INSANE. i didn't wan to leave but i have no choice at all. i regret sometimes. but i have no other way out. now i know the important of friends around u. althought sometime they make fun of ur name,ur everything. but in the end when you are sick or sad.they will be the only one beside you sharing thoughts with you giving you advise. now that i loss a friend, i have a friend lesser for me to share my thought.i have one less friend to miss me again. sorry for the hurting words that i have said. in the end i shall end my blog with the last line,

P/S:treasure all ur friends before they are not in ur side anymore!

SICK & HUNGRY!!!!

2011-04-11T13:12:00.003+08:00

BACK! jus woken up.. damn tired i think i am sick too.. feeling heavy all over.. ahhhhhh I'M SO HUNGRY THAT I CAN EAT ANYBODY UP.. going out with baby later maybe i think she will not go out with me if she knows i am sick. haa.. shall hide my sickness from her! haaaa... well felt so bored now. walking my GIRLGIRL later.. later half way i faint thn funny liao.. haaa.=p ok larh. blog again later! ha

UNEXPECTED=P

2011-04-10T23:39:00.003+08:00

changed a new skin, a new jeffrey as the new beginning of the week start tomorrow.Things always happen unexpected.Nobody knows what will happen the next minute. as said so we must treasure everyone around us. no point getting sad over people that don't know the word TREASURE at all.. is a waste of time crying and complaining about how bad they are to you or to other people. use the time to do things more worth.. crying or complaining doesn't help the situation at all. what you have to do now is to stand up where you fall.Be a better person,show that person that without him/her you can live better. stay happy..well i know that sometime is hard to let go of things that have been with you for a long time. one day that person that you treasure so much will leave?! so you still have to accept the fact in the end. you still have to live on a beautiful life ahead of u?! so stay happy the day where you think that this person is going to be the most important person in ur life you have to know that that person will still leave u one day.avoiding doesn't help at all.. face it and end it once and for all..

2011-04-09T23:02:00.001+08:00

sometimes things always happen unexpected! well yesterday, a saturday is a very bad day for lots of people. things happen unexpected..like break up with the other half?! is not 1 but more thn 1! in a day so many people get hurt and break down because of the other half. wad is the use of being together whn you end up having problem with each other. two person together mean to understand each other more. the more you quarrel the closer your relationship will go ("FOR SOME ONLY")..whn you are together you care for each other. you know every single things about the other half. MOST IMPORTANT,you must have faith in the other half?! everyone will get jealous,being jealous also must have its limit. get jealous because of little things thn is too unreasonable.. anyway to those who are hurt,things will get better,cheer up people, pick urself up from where you fall! for people that hurt the other half,for you. since you have decided that the relationship ends this way thn you don't regret it! i understand some of you got your own reason,so please make it clear to the other half so that it won't hurt him/her too much. so yarh blog till here for today. cheer up people=) MOST IMPORTANT! FACE THE FACT! YEAH...

2011-04-09T10:05:00.002+08:00

first time for so long i woke up at 9am! well went to look at lots of blog and i notice that people have more and more stress due to SCHOOL,WORK and even relationship. parents always said "being a child is the best,there's nothing to worry about" sometimes they don't even know how hard we work for THEIR DREAM for wanting us to have A1,we should be working for our dream.result is always something for a TRUST from them in you? WHY? i hate it. sometime stress comes from parents..work hard,work hard. sometimes we jus need someone to care? a little care may have great effect on RESULT?! anyway people jiayou in wadever you do.. no matter what just do your best. things will get better! "no pain no gain" the sweetness will come after the bitterness. so work hard you will sure have good pay back in time to come..

2011-04-09T03:08:00.002+08:00

back to blog. yesterday was a emotional day for me. well dun wan to get into detail.what's over jus let it over. today was a better day.well hope tml will be a better day. end here~

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2011-04-07T16:11:00.000+08:00

I wish someone could put a smile on my face now..i may be smiling all the time laughing all the time. The "ha" that i always put behind every sentence that i said was jus to cover the pain that i got within me...i need someone that understand how i feel. I need someone that will lead me a way..i need someone to tell me where i should go so that all this problem will not get in my way again.. Things are getting worse and worse every single day. I don't know how long i can survive this journey of life having so much problem coming and banging into me! I need help! Can someone help me out of the darkness? I have been walking and walking i don't seem to see any light ahead of me...i need a light of hope..

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2011-04-07T03:15:00.001+08:00

Sometimes i jus felt so hurt.. Things are getting into my way..wadever i do seem to be exchange to scolding in return. I mean i tried my best to do things. But still..last time i have friends that make me smile and laugh and care for me. Now i got a mess of things in my life! I need a listening ear..but there isn't any one i can share my thought, my life with..,i need some one that will be able to give me advise give me encouragement & support.

2011-04-06T03:21:00.005+08:00

back to blog again! not in a good mood. do so much things people say i never help. wad de hell.. everytime you come back make a mess in my life man! come on give me a break. everyone's patient has its limit can. say i keep playing com! i sat down for 10minute nia. done so much things you say i did nothing!really man everythings jus like giving me lots of trouble now a days! damn it man! was in a good mood till you open ur bloody mouth! i think you sure really cut it off!!!

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i need a break!

2011-04-06T01:38:00.002+08:00

hey baack to blog. hey i have stop scolding you anywhere since the day you said you dun wan to see it again.. whn did i blog bad things about you. things that i say in facebook is not you ok. i am not saying anything bad here too.. i blog sometimes is about other people. my fb was not talking about you also.. so ya. you sure is thinking who knows mayb you are bluffing. well i am not. i already say i didn't say anything bad about you after you said you wouldn't wan to say anything on fb again. and before you said that i already said some of my post is not talking about you on that day.. believe it or not.. hate me all you wan. i already explained myself. say all you wan..

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2011-04-05T03:13:00.001+08:00

Back to blog. Well look at the bright and beautiful sky! We should stay happy everyday to thank god for the beautiful sky everyday! Looking at the sky is 100% like we human being emotional.we human when we stay happy we will be like the blue sky. Then when we are angry we will be like as black as the cloud, then sometimes angry make us cry so is like the sky that is raining. But some of us will be the bright blue sky after crying. Sometime we will have a rainbow that bring us happiness. But some people will stay like the dark cloud that will not go away so easily. Which type of human would you wanna be? Ha ok shall blog again tml.